Two days ago I woke up with swollen eyes and had to peel my face off the pillow again. Haven't had to do that in a while. My skin is hurting as if Im back in month 3 of my withdrawal. Why is this happening? Is it because my 3 week liver detox ended and I reintroduced all the yummy things I had been avoiding (sugar, mainly)? Is it the Hand Foot Mouth disease working its way out of my system? Is it the residual stress from my baby's ER visit? I'm thinking it's a combination of all of the above, with diet sitting at the top of the list. Ugh. My hands are hurting the most. See pics below.
Im just so dryyyyyy. As if I just started moisturizer withdrawal. I thought it was supposed to get easier after that? Why am I still in so much pain, daily?
In an effort to cheer myself up, here are things I no longer have to deal with:
Red, BURNING skin
Inability to regulate body temperature
Keeping my hair off my neck
Oozing and sticking to sheets, for the most partCrying every day, multiple times a day, in pain. Now I only cry a couple times a month.
I just want to get to a point where I feel comfortable going out in public. And can sleep without a slew of medications that are doing God knows what to my insides. The other day, my pharmacist questioned if I really needed ALL these meds to sleep? "YES, FOOL!" No I didn't actually call her a fool but like HELLO obviously there's a doctor who is specially trained in this kind of situation who called these in. If I don't take the meds, then 1) I cant fall asleep before 5-6am and 2) I hover in REM sleep, not really feeling rested when I wake up. Actually, #2 happens regardless. Will I ever sleep normally again??